Sometimes you have to make a promise to others

Sometimes you have to make a promise to others in order to keep one to yourself.

Case in point - I want an iPhone. Really badly. But, I have decided to buy one once our credit card debt is paid off. At first, I thought of just caving. People set goals all the time and don't achieve them. Why not me too?
But then I made a point to mention it to a few people when they asked why I didn't have one (my husband has a work provided iPhone). I responded "I'll get one when we no longer have credit card debt." Bold. At least it felt that way.

Now that promise is out there in the world. The words have been spoken. It has become truth.

Last weekend we went shopping. My very generous husband mentioned that we would be near the Apple store and could easily get me the phone. Oh. I thought about it. For at least a day and a half.

And it broke my heart to say "no."

I made a promise. To myself. And to others. I'm going to try my hardest to keep it.