Very recently a friend said to me, "I miss your blog." Really? Someone misses something that I put out into the world that relaxes me and makes me feel connected?
This blog has always felt a bit selfish. It is a way to communicate the happenings of our family in a way that is easy to share and without time constraint. Typing into this blogger box, even if only for a few minutes, makes me feel relaxed and well with the world.
But then things just get in the way. A few people mentioned in passing that the blog was difficult to stay on top of and asked that I post more things on facebook. Then a random stranger commented on a post and made me hesitate to write more (I deleted their comment). And I started to doubt that this space was important.... important to me and to our friends and family.
I know that I am a twenty-something and should love and thrive with facebook, but it is hard for me to balance the hundreds of people who share information constantly. I always feel behind and like I'm not being a good friend if I don't read everything they share. This makes the times when I turn off the computer for a few days to be very stressful. In facebook-land I feel like I'm competing for space. It is difficult to express an emotion in a short blurb that I know will end up in people's newsfeed (and let's face it, I'm never short on words). Facebook is wonderful. It has allowed me to connect with people that I haven't seen in years and keeps me updated on great friends who are just as busy as I am. It just isn't my favorite place to spend time. But this blog is.
So...thank you to my wonderful friend (ahem...Mary) who spoke a kind word that rekindled my joy in speaking in this space.